Unless you guys are being sarcastic about BethG and me, I have little story from a great cognitive behavioral therapist (who has so greatly helped me to stay on the road of happiness--however, I do swerve off from time to time--but I haven't hit a tree yet!).
She told me that research supports that pessimists are probably slightly more accurate in seeing things the way things "really" are. However, optimists, although very slightly less accurate, have happier lives, better immune systems, and report an overall better quality of life.
So, here is support for you to stay positive Pam! We can be miserable with this monster inside us and think the worst, or we can be hopeful and snatch at anything good that pops up (a better way to live, in my opinion). I am trying hard to snatch away, especially after non-stop calls yesterday from 9am-6pm from onc's office, pharmacy, and insurance with my kids jumping on me and screaming & crying and the baby getting a 102F temp midday and up all night. Man, I am wasted, esp. with a mega period. And my ANC is .6 Oy vey! As usual, the onc's office relayed the wrong information. And I didn't even have to take a Xanax! But I did lose it once for a few minutes. However, I got what I needed, that is, my shot of Neupogen. I did it myself this a.m. (with help from a wonderful in-law). And now I can bypass the circus to some degree next time.
Pam, I so wish you the best. I would be just as anxious to see if the Sprycel is working. Sending waves of good wishes and positive thoughts your way! Rootin' for ya! Thinking of you.