Thanks, so much, you all; it's so nice knowing that none of us have to go through any of this 'shart' alone!
I don't feel too bad, just a little shaky, headache is much better.
Have decided to take my dose earlier today - with lunch. If it is the Sprycel I want to get that over with so I can get some sleep tonight!
Last night between the period of time when I was afraid I was dying and the period where I was afraid I wasn't going to die (don't scoff, if you've ever had a nasty virus you know exactly what I am talking about) I surfed the web and found the website maintained by Jerry Mayfield that http://www.newcmldrug.comI refer to in post above.
I'm certainly not trying to draw a correlation between my experience and Don Adkins, but this poem made me feel a whole lot better. I hope it is ok that I post it here.
Tribute to a CML Warrior...
by Jerry Mayfield
Today is the "Re-Birthday" of my dear friend, Don Adkins. He had a transplant at M. D, Anderson 5 years ago today. I remember, well, the day we met. He rushed up to me and gave me a great big hug. We immediately connected and became close friends.
Out of respect for his privacy, I will not go into the details of his transplant but suffice to say it has been very difficult. He has been "To Hell and Back". He has faced the"CML Dragon" bravely and without complaint. He is the bravest of the brave. He has defeated the Dragon.
I read this poem many years ago and adopted it as my inspiration for the fight ahead. Every time I read it, I think of Don. He truly embodies these words. I dedicate it to him.
Wounded, But Not Slain
"I'm wounded now, but I'm not slain,
I'm bruised and faint they say,
Just let me lie and bleed a while,
I'll not be long this way.
My spirit's low and my eyes flow,
My heart is sad and sore,
But when my pen'ent tears are gone,
I'll stand and fight some more.
I'll bind these wounds, I'll dry these tears,
I'll close this bleeding vein,
I'll not lie here and weep and die,
I'll rise and fight again.
'Twas yesterday I bowed so low,
Was weak from tears and pain,
Today I'm strong, my fears are gone,
Today I fight again."
-- Author Unknown
Well done, my friend,
Jerry