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[mariebow]

Billie I am so sorry about annie,I have been there two times and I have a lovebird now. I cannot get on this board with my son's laptop,mine is in the shop and it may not get fixed,but I can get on this site with my Xoom tablet.

[mariebow]

Billie it will take time, Annie had a good life with you and Ron from just reading your last post,you two made her life richer,remember that,I found out years ago,when I lost Bow that who would have thought that you could grieve so over a dog,but when I losr Bow,it actually felt like my heart was being ripped right out of my chest, my sister laughed at me because I cried so hard,but others felt bad for me, Oh wow I hope I am not be too dramatic. Hugs and a big kiss on your forehead. Marie

[Susan61]

Hi Billie:  So sorry for all you have been going through.  It seems like everyone is going through something right now at the same time.  I have not been on here that much either.  Trying to handle a multitude of issues myself.

Just keep Thanking God for all the good things that are coming out of all your trials.  I try to stay positive, but its hard sometimes.  Gary is doing great with his Chemo for the Bladder Cancer.  He has three more courses of treatment left.

     So glad to see you posting again.  I was getting ready to send you a personal message along with some others

A lot of our old-time regular people have not been around in awhile.

    Take Care and Love to You Too.

Susan

[hannibellemo]

Billie,

I knew there had to be some reason you weren't posting! I'm so sorry to hear about your grandson. Your son's accident was a tragedy, then to add his son's accident on top is almost more than one can bear.

This is not to forget or make light of the loss of Annie. I know how important pets are to most of us! There are pets who come into our lives and quietly leave, others leave deep paw prints on our hearts. Annie, obviously, left very deep paw prints. My most sincere condolences to you and Ron.

Pat

[pamsouth]

Hi Billie,

We use to have a lot of trouble with our HP and windows and hired some company to keep it clean.  But it was very expensive and still a nusiance.  About three years ago, I finally went to a Mavcbook Pro, and use Safari.  I have had it three years and no problems.  I use it like a desk top.  It sits on my desk and I have a wireless keyboard. Plus a chair that fits my body.   Otherwise typing on the hard surface of the laptop hurts my arthritic hands and poor posture gets my spine out of lignment 

Sorry about your fur baby and all.  I believe there is a Heaven for them.    I like to call it crossing over brainbow bridge.  I will send my fur critters out to meet Annie at rainbow bridge and light a candle for Annie!! 

After dealing with your son's accident, and than your grandsons accident, must have been frightening like reliving it all over again.

It is enough to deal with our health issues and then have something like that happen.   Seems this body doesn't take a lot of stress anymore, to hard on the body parts.  I try to take breaks, meditate and think of something that make my body and mind feel better.  We have some trees and a creek about 40 feet out our back door.  I took some pictures of the beautiful fall leave and my Mr Herchel 20 lb poodle looking out the sunroom at the critters.  They usually come up out of the creek at night at Mr Herchel thinks he is a big dude and runs out the dog door to chase them away, he does have a loud bark.  We have an open field behind the trees and when the leave shed you can sometimes see a deer and or a fox.  So I take short breaks when stressing and to refocus on something to take my mind off of stress related things. 

Had my daughter and family over for Chilie Dinner yesterday.  It was good to see them.  My 20 year old Grandson Alex has a new girlfriend.  She is a beauty, love her.  Problem being she won't be 18 until April and graduate from highschool this next May/June.  So her daddy is still keeping tight reins on her.  Make the kids unhappy but we keep telling them.  She only a few months away from 18 and graduating.  Aww Young Love, I guess I have forgotten.  Than I look at the sparkle in their eyes.  Tried to talk to my son-in-law who is a gastrology doctor about some of the medical issues and my daughter the nurse, fitness trainer and nutritient consultant.  They get part of it, but still not up on these new drugs and the protocol.  When I say clinical trial they get confused.  Then I explaine how long the drugs been studied and the side effects of each one.  The doc admires people who are pioneers still don't think they really got it.  But they have been trained that way and he deals with GI issues.  Glad to see my daughter is leaning a little more holistic.  She brought me some herbs.  Was going to take her to the doc with me, but don't think that would be a good ideal.  That last time I did that after diagnoses in 2005 we weren't speaking.  Difference of medical opionion. 

Take Care Pam South

[Marnie]

Billie. . .sorry.. .I have been really out of touch.  Just read your post today.  So sorry to hear about Annie.  It was rough when we had to put our cats down last year and the year before that.  Glad to hear that your grandson is recovering well.  Must have been a very scary time.

Sending lots of good thoughts and well-wishes your way.  Seems like the last year has been rough for lots of people.  Feels like I've been in survival mode for quite awhile. . .

All the best,

Marnie

[Pin]

Billie - it's lovely to hear from you again! I'm so sorry about Annie, that must have been heartbreaking for you - my pets are my children too, it was pure agony for me when I had my little girl put down. We grew up together and when I moved out of my family home I took her with me, so she was like my sister and child all rolled into one. Go easy on yourself, it is a very, very difficult time and I know how important Annie was to you both I'm sorry to hear about your grandson too, but very, very glad to hear that he is going to be ok.

[alexamay09]

Hi Billie. Goodness you have been through the mill lately! So glad your grandson is ok. It must have been devastating when your son was injured too. I am so glad that he recovered as much as he did. Life is tough. Its also natural to feel sad at the loss of a pet. My 18 year old cat passed away recently and I was very upset. I have had multiple pets my whole life and its the price we pay   take care and be kind to yourself. Blessings. Xx

[hannibellemo]

Something to think about, Billie. I told my onc if I experience symptoms again of a PE, and I did very early on the first time, he'll be the first to know and we can do x-rays then. He agreed, chest x-rays that frequently are not really a good thing. Excessive radiation can cause leukemia, you know! 

Take care!

Pat

[Marnie]

Hey, Pat. . .

Can I pick your brain (and Billie's too). . .

What does PE feel like?  I'm having some issues (aside from the annoying rash that won't go away), and am getting paranoid that I might have PE, pneumonia, or asthma.  Or maybe I'm just being a baby and have a bad cold that's gone on for months.

I am coughing all the time, especially in the morning, bringing up crud, though I have to work at it.  Feels like I can't fill my lungs completely.  We went for a hike last weekend and I could hardly go uphill. . we have thin atmosphere in Colo, but haven't ever had problems with breathing before.  Did a bootcamp workout Monday and had to sit out one exercise because I just couldn't get enough breath.  Yes, I'm in lousy shape, but never ever in my life had to sit out on a workout.  At night when I am laying down, it feels like there is stuff in my lungs.  During the day when I'm standing up, it feels funny when I breathe.

My onc hears nothing when he listens to my lungs.  I wonder how he can't hear anything, because to me, it sure feels like it sounds funny when I breathe. 

I have always been really bad about not seeing a doc until things get really, really bad.  So I keep waiting to see if this is just a cold that will clear up.  I've just never had my lungs feel like I can't get breath in before.  But it's not bad enough that it feels like it's serious. . .course, I've always had a high pain tolerance. . long distance runner, marathoner, yada yada.  Midwesterners don't complain, you know.  My mother taught me that.

What did your PEs feel like?

Marnie

[hannibellemo]

Marnie,

That sucks that you're having all these problems (rash, etc. with Sprycel). I think I may be losing my Queen of Denial crown to you, though. Colds do not go on for months! Repeat that after me. However, I can't think why a PE would cause you to cough up crud. I think it is more likely something else. I would ask for an x-ray to check for infiltrates and fluid, too, just in case.

I was carrying a loaded suitcase up the stairs and was seriously out of breath when I got to the bedroom. So much it scared the crap out of me. I denied it for a week until I had to accept something was off. I had symptoms when the tip of my right lung was just blunted, my onc looked at the x-ray and told me I shouldn't even be able to notice that a PE that small. I didn't stop Sprycel for about 2 weeks and by that time my PE had become more serious and I had developed a small peri-cardial effusion. I had pleurisy, too, which made it feel much worse.

Like you, I have an over-developed sense of denial and a high tolerance for pain. (My spleen enfarced twice before I allowed there might be a teeny problem I should have looked at.) Don't rely on breath sounds to assume you are ok, get an x-ray, please.

Pat