thanks guys for commenting,
I thank god everyday i wake up and every night before bed, I am so very thankful i am alive and feeling this good no one knows!! at my dx i was told i had ALL. I have never been so scared in my entire life. I stayed up and prayed all night.
I was told I wasnt going home for a very long time. talk about being a wreck, unbelieveable.
to tell you a little story, during that night as i said i prayed so hard, god and i had many talks. the nurse came in and gave me a journal to keep track of my days, that is the last thing i wanted it a journal!!! but during the night with nothing else to do i opened it up and there was a bible verse in there, just one but i used that the rest of the night. it gave me hope and a calming heart to face tomorrow.
that night i told god if he allowed me to have CML instead of ALL i would do something to help cancer patients just like me. I made a promise to him and strongly meant every word.
the next day i was told i had an 80% chance it was CML i went home and all i could think about is my promise. what could i do to encourage other patients like me. I came up with the idea of a bookmarker with inspirational verses on it, just like the one I used all night, the night before. so upon receiving your journal when you are in the hospital you had something to mark your page and read the message of hope, strenght and courage.
it took me three months to make these and get them printed.
right now i have them in several states in cancer hospitals, and have had absolutely wonderful feedback from them.
if anyone would like one for themselfs, or would like to give some to your hospital, i would be more then happy to send them to you to give them out or just message me your hospital and i will contact them and send them out directly. this is totally from my heart, and hope and pray if i help one person, it was worth everything
so yes everyone, i am so very thankful for my life.
sorry to ramble on,