Hello all,
I have been sitting here reading several posts for the past few hours, and to be quite honest I even sent in a request for a post to be removed, the request was denied by LLS, FYI it was not the one that was removed, not that it matters. I love this board, and it has offered me more support than any other avenue I have found, including professionals. That being said, I have become disillusioned by the content. Yes there are serious things happening, advice to be given, and I will admit the laughs were/are the best part, but situations just do not seem sincere to me. I realize no one knows any one, (that could almost be a tongue twister) but in my opinion a modem of trust is expected, and I no longer believe that is happening here on the board. To everyone that has offered advice, kept me grounded when I wanted to jump off a cliff because I have been so frightened, and especially support, I want to thank each one of you. Can't say that enough but it is all I have. I am annoyed with the drama that seems to surface every day. For a short time I fell into that drama, and was disgusted by the possible falsification of diagnosis, symptoms, and monetary requests, but today, while all this was heading toward a conclusion I finally decided it isn't worth it. I have posted my thoughts without accusing any particular person, and I have pushed the idea please do not donate to anyone unless you are sure they are credible, it is so easy to become wrapped in another's heartbreak real or fabricated, especially if one is suffering his/her own. This is all I can do. To those of you who do have CML or any form of this damned cancer we live with, I am with you, but today, I am done with the drama, it is not worth it and I am disappointed in myself I allowed it to infiltrate my life. Each one of us know who we are, honest or insincere, 'It is what it is'.
Pam
