Yeah, I know, there's an app for that. (sorry - couldn't resist)
I have always been a bad patient but since my dx in March 2010 I vowed to myself and my family I would change that. I have always said that if there were something horribly worng with me I would not want to know because the treatment is usually worse than the disease. It took me 7 years to agree to the test for Crohn's because I saw what my Aunt had to endure and swore that all the GI issues were nothing compared to the treatment. (I tested negative) So when the CML was diagnosed, I knew my outlook would have to change. And it did, for a little while. When I saw my Onc in October he told me to come back in 3 months and gave me the order for the PCR test before the appt. The problem was their computers were not updated with schedules that far out so they told me to call for an appointment in the beginning of January. With all the side effects and the horrible cold this winter making it worse, I never called for my appt and I never went for the bloodwork. I guess my mind relapsed into the old thinking that I didn't want to know if something was going on.
Last week I finally went in and got the bloodwork done and called today for an appt. I go on Thursday. Now I am starting to have serious anxiety. What if something is worse than before and I put myself in jeopardy because I didn't go back last month. I imagine that if something were horribly off on the CBC the Dr would have called me the next day, right? Anyway, I am once again committing to staying an active participant in this journey with my health. Thank you all for being here - somehow making this confession and commitment to my "virtual friends" seems to cement it in my mind that I need to do it. I will let you know how it goes on Thursday.
dx 3/10 G400 since