I'm 4 years into my diagnosis and the trip has been rocky at times. Thought I would share the trick I use to combat the CML blues when I get them.
A little background. I go to the Cancer Center on the University of Chicago Medical Center campus. It is a six-story large freestanding building that is dedicated to cancer treatment only. Hematology is on the 6th Floor. Across the street from the building is a freestanding six-story parking structure. They have 80 valets that park the cars in the structure for those patients who are too sick to walk out of the structure and into the clinic. The valets are busy all day. I park my own car.
My nurse told me that M-F they handle between 3,000-4,000 cancer patient appointments per day. Imagine the largest shopping mall you have ever been in at Christmas time. This place is busier - all day long. When I am there for my visits I see many, many REALLY sick people. In fact, the majority of the people I see look really sick. As in walking dead sick. As in someone call the Chaplain sick. I feel guilty when I am there because on the grand scale of things I am one of the healthiest people in the building. I am certain that most folks that see me assume I am a caregiver and not a patient.
On the days that I feel especially blue about my disease I remind myself of all of the deathly ill cancer patients I see at my clinic, most of whom (I assume) would gladly trade their disease for mine. I certainly wouldn't trade my disease for theirs! I also remind myself of all the families out there who lost loved ones to CML during the pre-TKI era. This "anti-blues strategy" works for me. Chases the blues right away. CML sucks for sure, but I refuse to let it throw me into a depression funk - that's where I draw MY line.
My Mom always said "Count the roses, not the thorns". Guess I used that logic to create an anti-blues tactic. It works for me.
We have an active group here. Maybe others would like to share the personal strategy they use to combat the CML blues. I'm sure everyone here gets them.