Last night I couldn't fall asleep before midnight, I was tired, but I just had to wait and actually see it through. 2.5 years ago I wasn't sure I was going to make it, but thanks to good doctors and the amazing state of modern medicine, I'm defying the odds (like the rest of you) and living with what was once almost certainly a terminal illness.
I think in another universe I might be upset about hitting 40, you know the whole getting older and all. Now I see getting old as a privilege. I don't know how much time I have, none of us do, and the illusion I had when I was younger that there will always be more days ahead is certainly gone. I try to make the most of each day and enjoy it as best I can. It has been tough, but I am still here.
Hoping my 40's last 10 years and they are better than my 30's. While a few of the greatest things in my life happened in my 30's (building my family and my career), there have been some really awful things, particularly towards the later years. I really hope that is behind me. I know bad things will still happen, as they say "Life is Suffering", just hoping its a little less suffering and lot more living.
Here's to me and all of you, may we all live well for as long as we can.........
) [just change "Johnny" to "Gary"]
