Best wishes for a good day for all of my fellow CML'rs!
Haven't been around here since November. Many changes here, some good some bad. Still in the trial drug Potanib & responding fairly well however the sides are difficult. Just finished meds for significant head/chest infection, not sure I'm clear of it at this point.
Since my last post I've had to quit the new job. Hours were too demanding & with my endless fatigue it was a disaster. I actually fell asleep- head down on my desk 2 times. I think with my red eyes & constant exhaustion the coworkers thought I was a drug addict-LOL? So I'm unemployed & have surrendered to being unemployable at this point.
I started sessions with a psychologist at my cancer center about 4 weeks ago. Its been difficult to admit that I'm depressed although those around me have said so for about a year. I'm on a 6 week evaluation program after which we will decide if I'm going on depression/anxiety medication. While I've always been quite private with my emotions its been good to talk with someone about my fears and my on going battles with cancer & sides. This service is offered free of charge at my center, I'd encourage everyone to think about seeing someone at some point to help with the emotional issues involved in living with cancer.
Thankfully my wife finally completed her exit from our home after a 6 month torture session. Living with a spouse for half a year who has mentally & emotionally abandoned me was more trying than living with cancer. I'm happy she is gone while mourning the loss of a woman & friend that I once thought enough of to marry. Experiencing financial difficulty following her exit and things are uncertain here. Nevertheless I'm hanging on hoping to stay in my home until Jon leaves for the Air Force Academy (I hope he is accepted) or college in 2013.
I'll have a good thought for all of you as we exit the year and prepare for the next. Hang in there!