Hi Pinkbubbles. I am so sorry that you are going through all this but am glad that you found this site. It has been a life saver for me. Remember, whenever you need to vent we are all here for you. CML is hard to deal with, especially at first, but everyone says that it does get easier in time. I, too, have not had a great response to Gleevec, had side effects that I couldn't tolerate from Tasigna so will be switching to Sprycel soon. I, too, am in the middle of switching oncs. I know how overwhelming all this is. My step-father passed in Feb., one week later I went into renal failure was dx with an autoimmune disease and 3 months later dx with CML. My mom passed 4 years ago. Even though I am much older than you, 53, I feel I can relate to the depression and anxiety that you are experiencing. Remember, you are on your way to a great hospital, a great doctor and I'm sure they will get you straightened out. Ask them if they can recommend support services in your area. You are not crazy, if you weren't experiencing anxiety and depression with all that you are going through, well that would be abnormal. Anyone would feel the same way you are feeling in your situation and many of us have and are feeling that way. Remember, we are here for you. Let us know how your appointment goes.
Virtual Hugs,
Judy