I am having a rough day and need to just vent. Have had a stomach virus for like 3 days and I tried to take my Gleevec but it comes back up cause nothing is staying down. Family dr says it just has to run it's course. i hope this doesn't affect my PCRU.
Today is a feel sorry for myself and "why me" day and can't get past the crying. This f**king anxiety won't go away even with taking xanax. My new insurance has a team of nurses and pharmacists trained about Gleevec and I was told it could be the Elavil I take at night causing the anxiety, when your stopped cold turkey and then later try to go back on same med it doesn't always work the same way. That's why I can't go any higher on dose or I get sick. Maybe Trey can help me on that one. But i need one that is going to increase my appetite and no weight loss and help me sleep at night. If I don't take the Elavil and a 1 mg xanax I am up ALL night. I just told my husband at lunch I am about ready to stop the Gleevec and just have a few good years. Of course he said he won't let me but I get tired of hurting, fatigue and the emotional part and menopause doesn't help I guess.
I go see my psychriatrist next week so I will see what happens.
I am beginning to hate Christmas cause I can't do as much as before, just to damn stressful. I did go out Black friday and had a anxiety attack in Walmart and had to take a xanax, couldn't stand all the damn people and that never bothered me before. I told some lady to shut her mouth cause she was bitching about something, I was just tired of hearing her mouth. About to start drinking here!!!! But thats your department Phil...LOL
I have to go to grocery store and I hate that too. Can't stand people especially if it's someone I know and they say "Well, you look good". I hate that totally!!!! What am I suppose to look like?
Enough of my venting but welcome to any help I can get. I really do need a depression pill I know that much but which one? I feel like I am losing it!!!